Wow. Over a year since I started this blog and clearly I haven't used it at all. I suppose I am still trying to get a grasp on why we blog or why anyone would even check this... or IF anyone actually does! But over the last few days, well, weeks really, I have understood why: IT'S SO DARN HARD TO KEEP UP WITH PEOPLE! With Facebook and Twitter we get a glimpse of what's going on in the lives of those we love, and those we try to love, but with blogs, we get the real thing. the whole story. An honest post. I LOVE seeing a post by my sister in law about the kiddies. It makes me feel like I am there- because I so dearly wish I was.
So I feel as if there is a lot to blog about right now, especially since I am supposed to be going to the gym at this very moment. Conveniently, I have so much to say.... Honestly, too much to even begin. I am welling up with tears just trying to think over the last two weeks, much less the last year that I haven't written anything- not one word.
I am entering into a new phase of my life. The last few weeks I feel as if God has been saying "Greyson, you haven't had much momentum to keep you going, so here are a few things to brighten your day." In a few months I will be one step closer to my "mid-twenties" and that's kind of scary. I feel like high school was just yesterday. But also, on the same day that I take that step, I take another slightly frightening step... a step into India. Yep I am going to India! With my church. My first time out of the country... Words can't really describe what's going on inside of me. I am beyond thrilled to be going. I am also beyond stressed. There is a lot of work to do! Letters, passports, visas, vaccinations, support, etc... However, I really believe God wants me going on this trip. He wants me to travel to a country I have never been to, a culture I have very little experience with and serve. He knows I am scared about raising the money but I think this is the moment where God is going to reveal his true power to me in a way that is real to ME. I have always been stressed about money- always. Since the day I was born there has been some financial burden, but that's ok because God has proven himself faithful- every. single. time. So why does it scare me beyond belief that this time is different? well, maybe I am scared in order for Him to prove me wrong. that sounds weird... but, you know, I kind of mean it. This is a huge sum of money. I have never taken this sort of commitment on, but He will provide. And if He doesn't, I am not supposed to be going- end of story. Well with that said, we leave in October. I am thrilled, as I said before. I am going with a really neat group of people. We are doing some really neat things there and I am expecting some MAJOR culture shock. I just hope no sickness follows us there...
So India is the big news. But last week was awesome. and the week before that, also awesome. Some neat things are happening acting wise- I booked a gig with soapnet that shot 3 days. God blessed me so sincerely. I was only supposed to shoot one day and HE gave me extra days because honestly, there was NO reason that I got bumped up other than His favor in the situation. Some other cool things are happening with my new acting venture in Voice Over. Can I just say how awesome VO is?! I mean, wow, I love it. I am recording my demo this weekend for an agent and we will see where this goes. I am utterly enjoying my acting class, which is a huge turn around from when I first began. It was such a frightening class! However, my personality just takes a while to warm up. This class is preparing me sooooo much for the unexpected. It's really getting me out of my box to explore in a safe place. I just hope I can take what I have learned to auditions.
So yeah, a lot has happened the last few weeks and even more has happened over the last year. Not all of it good, believe you me. But they are all stepping stones and I hope that I sincerely believe that! I think I do... I think I really believe that God is using these things to grow my character in ways I hadn't realized I was lacking. Having faith and pressing on will continue to be a challenge for me but I am so confident that I am maturing. God is continuing the good work he began in me until it's completed!!! AMEN for that. As Paul commands in Philippians, I will not be content to stay where I am nor look behind but strive towards the goal.... or something of that nature.
I am really going to try and update this. I think it could be fun and one day, with practice, I will be good at blogging. =) With the trip coming up, there will me much to say! Hold me accountable (if there is anyone out there)
